mind numbing
Mood:  mischievious
Now Playing: berlin - pleasure victim
as i awoke this morning, i can actually recall about 10 or 11 dreams that i had last night, which is an unusual number of them for me to remember. i haven't remembered so many as 3 since i had been hit by a truck way back in 1984. strange things about these dreams was when i was in them, i kept drifting from 1st person to third. i don't know if thats ever happened to myself before. strange. so... when i started to open my eyes as i laid there in bed... i felt like i was again in 1984/85. literally! so funny that the wife should be listening to berlin. the way i woke up from the dreams, the music, the stillness in the air. .. theres just something about today.

i just can't get over this feeling... ..

as i post this, i still feel like im only looking at the world through eyes of when i was 7 or 8. everything feels like i remember the 80's and was growing up. everything smells like the smells i remember from my childhood. this is a most confusing moment because it is my youngest daughters 1st birthday today. i am very excited because it is her birthday although i am feeling sort of numbed by this whole experience. im not exactly sure if im growing delusional yet again but there is something going on today. it feels extra special not because of the way i awoke, not because it my daughter birthday... just because. i can't explain it. it's quite comforting/confusing/frustrating/irritating/complex .. .. . . which make me feel as mischievious an 8 year old.