plastic man, the chameleon boy
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: radiohead - ok computer

down down down.. ....

that's the feeling of the last 3 days.
no surprises.
no wanting... . just being, feeling surreal.
nothing.
just like watching a movie only the sound has grown muffled and screen gets a bit blurry ever now and again.
little scar brings minuscule relief.
memories like knives to my back, flood me with images crystal clear until the moment passes, if indeed, it does.
if i could find the edge i'd jump although the fear is i'd continue falling and falling.
am i failing?
i'd tear this face off mine of but the mask has become me. i am plastic man.

chameleon boy... .
a shape shifter with no notion of self.
forget who i am or who you think i am.
i have forgotten and you never knew...