last
sow the seeds, sad little worms....
. ... for the farther comes nearer.
patience.

it's been awhile for time and time again i see failure. many, MANY, many long tiresome hours of work. no rest for the wicked they say. i'd suppose that 13o+ hours a week is pretty long, although, if it's really not... let me know. i almost forgot what the wife and kids looked like. the days, as you'd suspect, rolled into one. it was more stressful and hectic than inventory time. remodels SUCK! but the store looks brand new now and VERY beautiful.. very nice for a 1o year b-day.

lately i've been experiencing things in 3rd person. can't say that i'm happy nor sad really. if there was a scale from 1 to 10 and i'd have to place where and how i feel with my present situation, i couldn't. i feel like i'm just going through the motions again. slow motion daydreams only this feels like a nightmare. i feel out of control and i'm working to control the things i can but only a class 3 meltdown will inevitably happen.

KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMM! !. . . . ....

think i'll get a haircut.