Mood: not sure
This is how 🤔 i 🖤
far from anything i ever wanted to be. i once thought of the person I could have sworn i was supposed to be. It turned out to be something else. im not a narrasist, my traits though, would at times make it seem that way, though, however misleading.
Rather
i have found that the unmedicated version of my could be awe inspiring and comfortable. that version wore his heart on his sleeve and felt everything, EVERYTHING! all that was warm, thick and obsessed. pale and black 🔳 🔲 and devoid of space and time. it was there that everything and nothing flourished. simpler times, fond times.
Reality
i lost control. completely. unhinged and afraid 😨 voices, sight.
Until again....