Wednesday, 28 July 2004 - 7:06 PM PDT

wrote this for a man i love. call it a warning-whatever

i'll creep into your veins and into your fingertips slowly taking over everything. like a cancer. till theres nothing left of you. i want it all-the good the bad, the things you'll try to keep secret. i'll take everything, possibly use it against you then leave you for dead. I am dangerous to the fragile heart. Nothing is sacred. But you'll never forget. I'm seared in your head. tattooed on your body.
Forever you'll wonder if it was good or if it was bad.
the most complicated woman you'll ever meet.
invasive, insensitive, loving, and kind
everything to everyone yet eternally blind
i cant see anything but i see it all
i don't want anything but i want it all
and then theres you, be careful of me
this is your warning-last chance to be free


sweet isn't it? hope i'm not stealin your thunder, R-diggidy. You sound kinda mad in this transmission. could just be my perception. You are a great teacher.

oh and a good read is White Oleander. Much better than the movie. And also Shes Come Undone. a good book if you want to feel suicidal.

Saturday, 31 July 2004 - 9:59 AM PDT

sounds a bit obsessive all the while, it remains VERY passionate... or so says my perception. sweet? very much. stealin my thunder? who could steal the thunder from someone who is without rain? madd? could be. bitter? could be. that's why i labeled them "cryptic". left open for others to explore and maybe find a way to relate someway. "a great teacher"? hmmmmmm. thanks... but, ummm.. i couldn't imagine.

i will check out the book... shes come undone? never heard of it... also will check it out... not sure if i want to feel suicidal. i just do.